I believe I am officially having a quarter-life crisis… In almost a week, I will turn 24 years old. While I don’t know exactly what a quarter-life crisis entails, I am very sure this is it.
After a crazy rollercoaster of a year and a lot of self-reflection, I needed a vacation before I had a nervous breakdown. I treated myself to a vacation I really could not afford solely because I could not afford NOT to go on it.
This trip was a lot of firsts for me. It was a yoga retreat in Mexico, hosted by Free People & Yogascapes. Everything about it was fabulous. This trip was my first time travelling alone, and will stay in my heart forever. The vegan food was delicious. The boutique hotel, Pachamama Mexico, was stunning and the staff were amazing. The Free People staff put a lot of love into the planning of everything. The yoga teacher, Kate, was so inspiring, and the ladies from Skin/Food/Talk made me glow inside and out. And last but not least, I met a bunch of like-minded women who had amazing energy.
At the end of the trip I felt so inspired. I was ready to go home and implement all the amazing healthy lifestyle changes into my daily routine… I might have lasted just over a week before I was back to my bad habits.
I am really disappointed in myself for not keeping it up.
My life is not where I thought it was going to be 5 years ago, which is absolutely okay, but the question is, where do I go from here? I feel anxious, slightly depressed, and lost. I don’t really have my shit together, but then the other part of me recognizes that I need to live in the moment and that it ok to be unsure about. I think that I just put too many expectations on myself and let myself down.
The best investment you can ever make is in yourself, but I am sitting here with a burger in hand eating because I’m bored, wondering whether I should take a nap? Or should I do something productive?
How did I get so lazy? It makes me cringe on the inside… It is time for a change.
That’s why I am writing this post today. I am okay with being a little lost and unsure of what I want to do with my life, but I am not okay with all my unhealthy habits! So, this blog will be dedicated to me learning to live a healthier, adventurous life.